My hand is able to recover faster then the past!WoW!Was playing basketball during pe just now.Played 3 on 3 with the senior.The demon inside of me was actually not dead yet!I thought that it was actually dead with the flame inside of me.I almost let the other side of me in basketball out just now.I don't know how violent would i be inside the court if i would let it out just now.I won't let it out bah,too dangerous for everybody if i were to lose control completely inside the courts!No way i going to let loose that side of me!
Sometime i think i feel that i am losing control of myself.I am trying my best to control that side of me,but i know i may not control it one day!If that day were to come,i don't know what to do.Won't be able to face people in class le?Hahas.
Argh,i know the result of this crap!But i will never say it out to her!Hahas!I will only be a idiot to tell her the truth.Not so stupid man!Not going to ruin another relationship with anyone le.
I think that maybe in class i wasn't really trying to act as someone who i wasn't.Maybe that was actually the real me?Maybe i been wearing a mask infront of people so long that i don't even know that this is the real me rather then just a mask.Maybe i should just be happy-go-lucky about things now.Happy-go-lucky,that was my real self and not faking it!Maybe i was too blinded by thing until i didn't realised that.This is the real me,no more hiding or escaping,just want to be myself from now on.There's no point in hiding thing,there's no need to watch your back in case someone tried to backstab you!No more mask!No more hiding!