Some time i really wonder,have i grow up even a little bit ever since i came to ite?I really don't know at time,i feel very immature at time.Thinking foolishly,feeling foolishly,acting foolishly.At time i really feel like telling you the truth,but there seem to be something stopping me.Maybe i really shouldn't tell you the truth first.I don't know how would you feel after knowing the truth,i don't even know how i would do after i told you the truth.I really not sure if i won't avoid each other after you know the truth.I really not sure if everything would change after this?There seem to be so many what if inside my mind.What if you are unable to accept the truth and avoid me?What if i myself can't take it as if nothing had happen and avoid you?What if i lose you as a friend?What if!What if!So many what if in my mind!It's almost driving me crazy.I just wish there's a kind of medicine for me to eat and just forget all my trouble inside of me.But would i lost my ability to even try to act out the smile in front of my friends and family?No matter what i still don't want people to worry for me.
Yesterday was doing the table.Freaking tired,but one thing about yesterday is someone whom i know for 8 years sms me suddenly.Hahas.Was happy to see her sms,my primary school friend/aka. my neighbour also.Hmm,but i know that whenever she sms me,sure troubled and need me to help her or just support her.But i really don't know what to say to her yesterday,HAIS.