Ah,headache.Hangover.Sians today couldn't go to work due to headache.But thinking back about yesterday,i didn't know why did i drank so fast.Maybe it's because the 3 song that the band was singing was the song that was played that night?Memories flowing through like a river!Some time i really think that my memories are funny at time.To people good memories to them are happy.But why to me,all the happy memories cause me so much sadness and pain?My mind is so full of question i want to ask yesterday.Why this,why that!Why!Why!Why!Hate this feeling.I thought thing would be fine after that,but don't think so.Why do i still carry so much emotion inside of me.I thought i could get rid of all emotion inside of me,i rather be a empty shell without any emotion.Hais,really not sure about anything anymore.Maybe i has really change after i come to ite,maybe i am starting to care about thing around me unlike in my secondary.I still hate thing about me.I couldn't help anyone.I could only listen to them,but when i want to help,i couldn't help much.Hate it,and i really hate it so much!
I decided on things and i think i am going to stick with that choice.I won't do anything else,going to stay this well as we are now,for now and forever.
Don't feel like online msn or even on my computer this few days.Just wish i could settle my own mind and sadness?My mind won't be back into my normal state for the next week at least...Anything still can sms me,i will reply.
Am i going to regret this decision?Why do i still feel confuse...Hais,won't be blogging till next week when i am back to normal bah...