Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Computer spoilt again.No more computer to use for some time.Lols.Is this even a good things for me?Hahas.Take a break from all the using of computer and crap that i do at my computer ba?

So much things has happen and is still happening around me.I don't know really if i should even say out certain things to others or not.Maybe at time i should just keep my mouth shut and keep quiet about things that is happening ba?Just lead the stupid and lame life that i been leading for the past 17 years ba?Why should i even go care about those things?So what?But does it really matter at time?At a time like this does all those things really matter anymore?Sometime certain things should just be keep a secret ba?Why should i even go say it out at time?Just because of a promise to not lie?Maybe i should just shut up to not make you sad ba. HAIS! MY MIND IS IN A MESS.

Today 24 Nov 2009. ZhuZhu birthday.I just realised so much things that i didn't know about it in the past.Keep me thinking about it all night.Why must the truth hurts?And why should i even affect others because of my own problem?But what i can say is only sorry to you.No matter what i still wish want to say sorry. SORRY!

Should i tell you the things or not?Some question waiting for someone to answer me.What if?What if?What if?Why should there be so many what if in my mind everytime?LOLS.Still feel i shouldn't say it out at time ba. KEEPING MY MOUTH SHUT THIS TIME!AND NEXT TIME!AND FOREVER SO AS TO NOT AFFECT YOU ANYMORE.




Friday, November 13, 2009

Kinda not sure what to say about all those things that had been happening around me. One Word. Sucks. 

Leading a path that lead to nowhere.




Sunday, November 8, 2009

To AhWan: Wei! What happen to you? Okie,last time i am fine with it even if you don't tell me anything because i know that the old ahwan i know will get back on her feet by herself without the help of others. But this time don't hide anymore! Tell me what happen? I feel like you are drifting further and further from the old ahwan i know. Come back to us girl! No matter what happen i know that lijuan will not abandon you,i will not too,and there's still lots of people behind you supporting you. We're all your friends,so don't drift away. I want the ahwan i know during this year Chinese New Year! We been classmate for 4 years and only this year CNY then i start to really know the real you. How can you start to change even before i really know you?

To my real self. You surely sucks to the core ! 

我爱的人,不是我的爱人.

Where will you be if i were to be sad?

Where will you be if i needed you by my side?

Will i be the one to be there for you whenever you need someone?

Will i be the one to lend you my shoulder when you need to cry?

Will i truly be able to smile like nothing happen if you're with someone else?

Will you ever be able to love me the way i love you?

Can i be able to share all your burden with you?

When you're sad i will be more sad.

When you cry,i feel worst being not able to cry with you.

When you're not around me,i think of you every single second.

When you're beside me,i still misses you.

When i hold your hand,i feel i am the happiest guy on earth.

When you lay on my shoulder,i feel like nothing else matter except you.

NOTHING IS MORE IMPORTANT THEN YOU!




Saturday, November 7, 2009

I feel like i been saying forget it forget it lots of time this week.But it's like i just saying only.I still remember all the things i wanted to say but didn't.Hmm,forget it ba.It's better not to say out things clearly at time.

The pain is just too real to be fake.

Plain foolish about me.

Sucks in handling things.

Stubborn.

Plain stupid.

Dumb to the max.

Can't even help in anything.




Friday, November 6, 2009

The Click Five - All I Need Is You
You're scared
It shows
Been there
You're not prepared to be
In love
With me
So soon cause you've been through enough to have
Something hold you back
We don't need to go that far
Let's hold on to where we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you
They say
Don't waste
Your time
They're obviously blind
So let's
Forget
The words the thoughts they put into your head
Don't give up just yet
We don't need to go that far
Let's hold on to where we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you
We don't need the world right now
We got time to work it out
Hold on tight, I'll hold on too
Cause all I need is --
Baby, maybe we should start somewhere
baby, let me in your heart
Before we fall apart
We don't need to go too far
Let's hold on to who we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you
We don't need the world right now
We got time to work it out
Hold on tight, I'll hold on too
Cause all I need is you
All I need is you
All I need is you

Kinda love this song very much.Maybe!Ah Forget it. 



Wednesday, November 4, 2009

HAIS! I... ARGH FORGET IT. 



Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Out of a sudden i feel this way. I will always be there for you whenever you need me to. But who's by my side when i need someone to be by my side? Out of a sudden i feel alone in this world. 

Having a slight fever,getting sick. Time to say goodbye.

ANYONE WHO'S GOING TO FUCKING PISS ME OFF IN SCHOOL IS GOING TO REALLY GET IT FROM ME THIS TIME FOR REAL. NO MORE MR. NICE AND TOLERATE. GET THIS IN YOUR FUCKING HEAD!? IF YOU ALL WANT TO REALLY SEE HOW BAD MY TEMPER STINKS,THEN TRY! 




Monday, November 2, 2009

I just feel that fate is trying to play with me time and time again.

Would i be able to accept the truth as it is? I don't know,but i will know when the day come ba.




yours truly
benjamin
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