Thursday, December 31, 2009
I think this isn't the first time i been saying this ba. But i still want to say this again!
I AIN'T A GOD !
I don't even know what kind of shit am i? All i could do is nothing whenever i know that the people that i care about around me are sad. All i could do is just try my stupid best to cheer them up,but i always failed! Never for once i really helped someone ba? FAILED. FAILED AS A SON. FAILED AS A FRIEND. FAILED AS A LOVER? FAILED AS A HUMAN BEING! I am just a failure!
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
BOOM! AND EVERYTHING IS GONE WITHIN SECONDS~
What's in store for me in 2010? More pain and sorrow is guess. That's my life and i just have to accept it.
Life is precious. Life is short. That's why i will treasure all the little time i am left with. Treasure all the people i truly care for. And love...
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
If only our brain can work like a computer how good would it be? Anything that you don't wish to keep inside of you is just a click away and boo it's gone.
If there's a medicine that's able to make you become heartless how good would it be? If there's a medicine that's able to make you disappear from the surface of the world,and live in a world of only you how good would it be? If only there's a medicine that's able to take away all the pain and suffering inside of me how good would it be? But there isn't one...
Why should i even care about thing? Why should i? There isn't a reason for me to do so but why should i? Why should i even try to hang on even though it hurt so much? WHY? Can someone bloody tell me why? WHY? WHY!?
Monday, December 28, 2009
What's has to done,had to be done. No matter how hard it's going to be. I am going to do what's right this time! No matter how big the price i have to pay.
Kinda hate myself more day by day...
The only thing that i am left with inside of me now is only an empty shell. That don't carry anymore emotion for anything or anyone anymore.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Hais,how i wish... But i know it'll never going to happen. Really like time to slap myself awake.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Suddenly i feel that i am lost and all alone back into the darkness again. Maybe. But still want to forget it. I see no point in it anymore.
If pain is part and parcel of life. Then does it mean that my life will only contain only pain? Whereby all those happy memories i had all my life can only be just a dream? Even if i know that it really happen before? I should have just accept my fate and not trying to fight it.
All the happy moment i had is just a dream.
At the end of the dream is just a nightmare waiting for me.
There'll never be light waiting for me at the end.
Only a world filled with darkness waiting there.
I have woken from my dream and thanks for the dream.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
I am broke~ LaLaLas. Wondering when then can i buy the guitar? Hmm.
Thinking about something. Not sure if i should do it or not.
Monday, December 21, 2009
The feeling kinda sucks now. Raining heavily outside. I suddenly at a lost of words. Suddenly i feel like my world is ripped apart within seconds. But what can i do? All i can do is have myself to blame for all those that happen. I can't forget and i can't forgive.
What's left inside of me is just memories of things that happen in the past that's never to be remember again. Never be spoken again.
Saving money to buy guitar. But too bad i can't buy skateboard! Damn it.
Playing Talisman Online. LOLs.
I was wrong. But thinking back,i was always wrong. I never say the right thing. I never do the right stuff. All i given is pain to you. SORRY.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
I really tired of everything. Problem everywhere. HAIS. Shit the hell out! FUCK EVERYTHING!
If only there's a medicine that's able to allow one to be able to not love anymore,i would be the one to take that medicine.
Kinda hate the life i am leading now. I don't even know if i should hate or like the pain inside of me now. I really feel like everything that happen in the past seem like a dream to me suddenly.
Just don't care! Just don't care! This is what i keep telling myself,but i still keep thinking about it! ARGH FUCK IT !
Friday, December 18, 2009
Feeling very very ___ inside of me for the past week... Ahhh Forget It Ba!
I kept thinking and thinking about something this 3 days. But what's the point when i know that it'll never ever happen no matter how many years pass. HAIS! Feeling like !@#$%^%&^&* inside of me now.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Hais. So much things on my mind. Can't seem to find any peace in my mind nowadays.
Don't know if things are getting back or just getting worst then before.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Feeling so so so damn cold now. Raining + Raining + Raining! Freezing my brain and my body. Getting sick again soon. Or rather still sick.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Hmm,i don't know what the hell is with my blogger,now i can't change my bloody front size! Crazy Bitch Blogger!
Hmm,kinda sick for the past few days. Can't seem to recover from my illness. When it seem like it's already gone,it's back in 2 hours! YA! 2 HOURS! Okies,i mean diarrhea. Hahas. Been running to toilet like what sia! Yesterday want go play basketball halfway need go back cause need use toilet! =(. Sorry all =).
Something inside of me is coming back. Expected to see a drastic change in my attitude for the new few days or weeks. A great storm is coming my way.
We can't go back to the past,what we can do is only walk on from the present. I think i finally understand the meaning of this now. I will try to do it!
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Yo Yo Yo. My com is finally fixed. Back for more blogging all my "supporter"! =D.
