Friday, April 16, 2010
The Choices You Made Now,Decide Your Future.
I don't know why the fuck and i saying such things in my blog suddenly. Just feel that maybe it's really time to make that decision and let everything that should end come to end. A friendship that is connected to love is never an easy relationship. I don't really know what it feel like to be love and love someone and care for them not just as a friend,but someone special. Maybe just like someone told me years ago that i shouldn't and can never find someone special in my life. It just will never happen to me like to others. Sometime i really feel like maybe i should just leave things the way it's now. What for am i fighting so hard for something that shouldn't be mine? But thinking back,i never really did fight for anything. Always having the thought that we can never be together. Always just wishing all those happy moment could just stop at that very moment. Living in my own world of wishing and dreaming of things that can never happen. Thinking of memories that bring back both happiness and a great amount of pain inside of me. Thought that i had let go off but the fact is that i never even did once. Felt so stupid bout myself.
In the past i even thought if GOD were really the one that made us,why do he give us the power to think and feel? And love... I really think that this 3 is the most deadly weapon one could use to hurt another. No matter how powerful is Guns are or Cannon or whatever weapon that man made,it can never win the weapon that GOD gave to us in the very first place. It's easy to get and it's free. Also the level of deadly is way higher then any GUN nor Bomb could do. But still... I DON'T BELIEVE IN GODS! =D.
If somethings is broken,we would just repair it. But when the things is beyond repair,we would just simply throw it away in the duskbin. A broken watch can bring to a watchshop for repair? A broken handphone can bring to the handphone shop for repair. But where can i bring a broken heart for repair? Maybe i might just open a shop to repair broken heart. I bet i will make lots of money! If i were to ever find a way to mend those broken heart first. But i think first i will mend my? =D...
