Saturday, October 23, 2010
When you thought things are already over,it ain't.
I think i'm getting lazy to blog nowadays. Or rather i don't wish to blog about stuff. Stuff that i really shouldn't let anybody know ya? Somehow i feel myself losing the ability to judge like in the past. Maybe i have just close the eyes in my heart now? I think lots had changed in me. It kinda don't really feel like me anymore? It feel like i became another person? One who won't care about what happen in the class anymore? One who won't try to help solve things when i know the problem? One who just wanna escape from my own feeling because i know in the end this feelings will just turn their claws and attack me eventually.
I thought i could do it. I thought i could face everything but the truth is that it's just sleeping in my subconscious mind,waiting for the trigger to once again start it.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Time is always counting down,but it's the time left that matter.
Somehow i feel sucks about things. Feel like i am such a burden in your life. Each and every time i try to help cheer you up it always end up failing. It really feel sucks to keep trying to act like i'm okie infront of you whenever i seeing you feeling down. Trying to make a freaking big joker whenever i'm near you so to indirectly try to cheer you up. Maybe i'm just fooling myself in things? Why the hell would a useless me make a different in your life? You,who got so much friends in life that's always there for you whenever you're feeling sad would need me? Maybe it's time for me to accept this cruel fact. The fact that it's me who is lonely inside. And the fact that i still do kinda .............. You.
Time is ticking as the days,weeks,and months passes by my life. Telling me the day will be coming soon. The day whereby i'll leave your life and the day you would forget this burden on your in life.
