Tired of everything. Finding a place to rest my pace and forget everything. Hoping i would be able to just sleep and never wake up from the beautiful dream.

Everything put aside. Risk on the side line. The final drive is here. The final fight for victory!

IT'S TIME TO FIGHT FOR EVERYTHING YOU CARE ABOUT! NO HESITATION! FIGHT!!!!!!!!

I think i got nothing much to blog about nowadays. Well since none is really reading my blog also,thinking of closing down soon?=). 

Everything is in a mess and i don't know how am i going to settle all the mess i created.

I waited and waited for so long. But what am i really truly waiting for? I really don't know the answer even till today. But i think i should wake up from this crap already. I think i done enough harm and bought enough pain and sadness to you already. It's really time to just really FORGET IT!

Trying to keep my promise,no matter how much i know it'll going to hurt. No matter how much i know that it'll once again be a regret in my life once more. No matter how much no matter,i am sticking with the promise i made that very night. Because i ain't going to let the same thing happened again...

History is repeating itself after months. Pain still continue to live inside of me. I will still make the same solution i made about 9 months again if i have to. I will have to throw away all my feeling and emotion for some time to make that solution works. No matter how much or how long this pain is going to continue to live inside of me after i make that solution works. Even if it going to live inside of me FOREVER. I never want to forget those memories.

Where to go? How to go? How to move on? Feeling lost suddenly. Never been feeling like this before. Maybe there's always a first to everything? But it'll also be my last too. Just like everything that ever happen to me before. Too tired to move on. Too tired to walk on. Too pain to not think about it. Too pain to remember those memories.

TOO CRAP!

Some time i really don't know which is me anymore. What's is the real me under all those cheerful mask? HAIS! 

I don't know what else to say except sorry for what i said last night. 

HEADACHE SINCE LAST NIGHT TILL NOW! ARGH.

Nothing is the same,nothing will ever go back to the past anymore. Nothing...



What's is this feeling inside of me? Is this the feeling of loneliness? Feel like my heart is being eaten away slowly day by day.

benjamin
18 on 22/04
ITE CE Simei
& Peixin
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