如果没有你没有过去我不会有伤心.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

It's raining raining heavily outside my house... BORED! Not feeling well and i can't get to sleep cause of the rain... Ah my headache is getting worst!!! *SLEEP*

Fucking pissed off bout something which i can't say it out or ask! ARGH! Must tolerate with it like i always did in the past! Won't lose my cool so easily now,i made a promise to you!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! My desktop got problem! Damn the crap shit out of it! I don't think the problem with my keyboard! It's with my DESKTOP! My keyboard can't use! =(. Think my USB port spoilt already or is really my keyboard problem. HMM. I spend so much on my keyboard! I won't go to it fair to buy gaming keyboard anymore! LOLs. So fucking piss off,luckily i got my laptop if not i don't know how do my SOP already! HENG!

Monday, April 26, 2010

I really like what this 2 picture is saying.

In the end we always regret the chances we didn't take.

the relationship we were afraid to have.

And the decision we waited too long to made.

Are You Making Full Use Of The Chances Given And The Time Left? Cause I Am,And I Will Die Without Regret.

I think i got a weird disease. I call it weekend sickness! Getting fever every weekend nowadays. Weird. Morning woke up headache like freak!

아는 사람 중에 당신의 사랑에 대해서만 빌었습니다,하지만 더 그렇다 예상 대 로야.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Slept like 7Hours or so yesterday. Feeling the tired in me now! Lols.

Currently: Busy Gaming!

Learning how to snip in Sudden Attack. Frankly i sucks in sniping. Wanna train to be a better Sniper! =D.

사랑과 죽음이 얼굴을 올 때. 어떻게 할 것인가?

Saturday, April 24, 2010

I'M TRYING TO LEARN KOREAN! Okie,i am basically just joking about learning Korean. But i really wanna buy Guitar or Skateboard while i still have the chance to learn it! =D.

To WanYee: Hey Yo! oY yeH! Don't think this the time to joke. Ok to the main point. What's happening to you? I thought you promise me that nothing will knock you down already? I really don't know what happen to you this few days. But really what's the point of crying right? Hais. At time things may not go our way but what happen to my Ahwan!? Huh? As far as i can remember my ahwan is strong and never give up right? Tell me what happen alright? And stop asking me to not worry. I worry for you,as my friend,as my ahwan okie? Take Care of yourself ar!

사랑은 사람들이, 그럼 우리가 어떻게 우리가 사랑에 대해 경험이 모든 고통을 설명 할 말을 간단있다면?

Friday, April 23, 2010

Late for school today! As usual. Sway Day.

End of my post for today! Thanks You.

잘못되고 그냥 빨아 느낌이있다는 느낌.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Today is my birthday. I finally 18! ALCOHOL! CIGAR! M18 MOVIE! Ok just kidding bout those. It's time to be more mature then 17. I should be more responsible for my action then before.

Thanks to those who wished me Happy Birthday.

As usual. I'm eating my birthday cake alone at home like always... Well. Should i say i'm used to it or just wishing for someone to celebrate with me.

난 단지 당신이 행복도 만약 내가 당신 품으로하지 않습니다 것입니다 좋겠어.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Freaking tired waking up this morning. Why am i getting more and more tired day by day? Weird! Very weird! Must sleep early when i go out for IA! SAD! SAD!

Time! Time! Time!

Today is Berlin Ng Hui Xuan Birthday! Even though i FREAKING hate her. But i still can't change the fact we're classmate since primary 4! -.-" Consider myself unlucky...

시간은 당신을 위해 기다릴 수 없습니다.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

This is the 2nd time i took circle line home from school! LOLs. Seem like it's very jam at Bishan MRT station. I'm getting squash until like a Roti Prata! Flat! =).

My Supergirl is sick! =(. Get well soon ar ahwan! =D.

난 당신의 미소를 잃었다.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Getting more and more tired and tired no matter how much i resting. Is it because that i'm sick this few days,or is it because of other reason?

Some picture of yesterday BBQ with sec class. I don't think anybody could spot me in the group photo taken! MUHAHAHA. I hid way way behind at the back =).

내 생애 최고의 후회가 당신과 사랑에 빠지지하고 우리의 우정을 망치는거야.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Later i going to have BBQ near my house! MUHAHAHAHA! Okie i really don't know what to blog today. Not feeling that well this 3 days...

그대와 영원히하고 모든 약속 내가 당신에게 만들어 유지 수 없다는 걸 용서하십시오.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

BLA. BLA. BLA. Tomorrow having BBQ at Teck Whye Garden. This is the 2nd BBQ after Jovin birthday BBQ i had with them. Kinda weird this time? Cause there will be much Much MUCH lesser people going compared to Jovin Birthday BBQ. Also i ain't bringing someone with me this time too.

난 용기가 사실 내가 당신과 사랑에 과거에 빠졌을 인정할 필요가 없습니다. 하지만 지금은 그 사실을 직면하고 후회하고있다. 만약에 내가 그 사실을 우리는 어떻게 우리가 지금하는 것입니다 얼굴은 안 했어?

Friday, April 16, 2010

The Choices You Made Now,Decide Your Future.

I don't know why the fuck and i saying such things in my blog suddenly. Just feel that maybe it's really time to make that decision and let everything that should end come to end. A friendship that is connected to love is never an easy relationship. I don't really know what it feel like to be love and love someone and care for them not just as a friend,but someone special. Maybe just like someone told me years ago that i shouldn't and can never find someone special in my life. It just will never happen to me like to others. Sometime i really feel like maybe i should just leave things the way it's now. What for am i fighting so hard for something that shouldn't be mine? But thinking back,i never really did fight for anything. Always having the thought that we can never be together. Always just wishing all those happy moment could just stop at that very moment. Living in my own world of wishing and dreaming of things that can never happen. Thinking of memories that bring back both happiness and a great amount of pain inside of me. Thought that i had let go off but the fact is that i never even did once. Felt so stupid bout myself.

In the past i even thought if GOD were really the one that made us,why do he give us the power to think and feel? And love... I really think that this 3 is the most deadly weapon one could use to hurt another. No matter how powerful is Guns are or Cannon or whatever weapon that man made,it can never win the weapon that GOD gave to us in the very first place. It's easy to get and it's free. Also the level of deadly is way higher then any GUN nor Bomb could do. But still... I DON'T BELIEVE IN GODS! =D.

If somethings is broken,we would just repair it. But when the things is beyond repair,we would just simply throw it away in the duskbin. A broken watch can bring to a watchshop for repair? A broken handphone can bring to the handphone shop for repair. But where can i bring a broken heart for repair? Maybe i might just open a shop to repair broken heart. I bet i will make lots of money! If i were to ever find a way to mend those broken heart first. But i think first i will mend my? =D...

Woke up and find my chest in pain and i woke up late too! Lols. Seem bit of shit but ya!

6 More Days. I wanna go to the place of memories to me... To relive the bit of happy memories i have.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

I don't know what the fuck happen during lesson today. Just a smell of the Alkaline Protease and woo! My chest suddenly hurt like fucking hell. Keep coughing outside and couldn't talk much as it really really hurt just talking and laughing.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Someone e-mailed me something idiotic...

Title: 10 ways to tell if a guys like you.

Well,i don't know if it apply to all the guys in this world,but i think it does to lots of guys?

He cuddles you until you cuddles back.
He stares deeply in your eyes and doesn't care if you notice him.
He will babble on like a idiot just to talk to you.
He laugh at your joke no matter how crap it is.
He is quieter when he is alone with you.
He will hug you over 3 time everytime he see you.
He will get annoyed at anyone who look like they are going to hurt you.
He can't always finish his sentence cause he think he may look like a idiot.
He can barely squeeze out the word "i love you" when he walk you home.

This's the 3rd day of a new term. Now we're JB0904R now. Class R(A). Okie,just a joke about the A.

I saw someone special to me today... Not going to say who. She'll know who she is =). Right?

Saw sadness in your eyes today. But i felt sadness inside of me at the very same moment i saw that. Why does i feel this way even till now?

Sunday, April 11, 2010

How long does it take to completely forget someone? I feel so foolish in the past to think that yes i could do it easily. Maybe i'm just a fool. A fool to not know when to fuck off and disappear forever. It's time to learn the last lesson of life. "Knowing when is the right time to disappear forever..." The time when i finish that last lesson of life,is the time whereby i will completely disappear from you forever and i'm already reaching the last chapter of the lesson. Just like the path of life is reaching it's end.
I don't know how long has i been blogging. There're so many blog i had in the past. Each blog hold a piece of the memories i had. Every memories is precious to me. Just like how this word "DESTIINY" had been with me. Destiiny hold so much memories of the past to me,a past which i can never move on from and walk out of the shadow of pain. A past whereby each step i took is a mistake and i end up hurting the one important person to me. A past whereby doubt and anger took the best of me. A past whereby jealousy seem no end in that chapter. A past of Wugui and Zhuzhu. A past whereby two stranger became friends,lover,and stranger again. A past of mistake...
The last chapter of my life is called "ENDING". It's the ending of all my past. A end to all the mistake i made. Also a end to all the true little happiness i experience in this chapter of my life. The ending of everything that ever appear in this chapter of my life. All those happy dream of memories which i had try so hard to forget but always in the end torture me when night falls. A nights whereby happy memories torture you throughout the night till dawn appear. The ending of all regrets.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

I'm Tired Of All The Memories I Hold.

I am running and running for the past 18 years of my life. I don't even know why am i wasting my life running away problem after problem,things after things. Eventually i got tired of running already. I thought of settling down for something i love and always hoped for. But in the end it's all just a dream to me. A dream that i wish i could never wake up from. A dream that i wish i could sleep and dream forever and never return to face reality. But like all other dream i had in the past,this dream end up the same as other too. Every single time i woke up from my dream,i find my heart getting more and more broken then the previous one.

The most deadly weapon in this world are "Memories" and "Words". It's because both of them last forever deeply in our mind. When both memories and words are given from the one that you loved. Just like not all scar show,nor all wound could be healed. And it doesn't mean that we could see all the pain and suffering one is going through deeply inside of him. Cheerful look are just a cover,a perfect cover to hide all those scar and wound that reside under the masks that nobody know that it even exist.

Some people say it's better to love someone that you can never get then love someone you shouldn't love. But for me,i love someone that i can never be with on the other hand she's also someone which i should never ever loved! Because loving her is a mistake from the start.

Some time i really wondered which is the worst pain? Saying something that you shouldn't and wishing that you didn't? Or saying nothing at all and wishing you had in the first place? I experienced both. And both hurt. At time i really wonder this question. Should i say out the things in the first place? Or should i even not say out things bluntly? I just wish i know the answer myself.

Ever wonder which hurt the most? Seeing the person you cared for,love with someone other then you? Seeing her happy but the person beside her is not you. Knowing that when she's feeling down and needed a shoulder to lean on,but you know that the person that she's leaning on is not your? Or being with the one you loved,but only to see her getting more and more unhappy with you day by day? Not knowing anything about her? Not knowing if she's happy even though she's smiling infront of you? Which will you choose? See the person you loved being happy with the true happiness she deserved? Or fighting for your own happiness? I would choose a 3rd chose. I would choose to run away from the person i once loved. Bringing away all those memories with me away and wishing that she'll be more happy with the one she loved. Wishing the person would be able to do a much better job in protecting her then you could. Perhaps the hardest happiness one could ever wished for is watching the one you loved,love someone else?

If you were given a choice. To choose to fight for your own happiness or to let go of the one you loved and let her find her happiness. Which will it be?

The happiest thing that you'll ever felt is when you see the one you loved smile. The worst thing that you'll ever felt is when you see the one you loved sad. Because you tend to feel twice,thrice or more time the sadness they are feeling.

Finally i come to an END =P. The hardest words in my dictionary is "I LOVE YOU". The hardest thing that i will ever do in my life is saying this 3 hardest words in my dictionary to the person i loved face to face. I'll only said it when my life is nearing it's final destination...

Thursday, April 8, 2010

The trip from my house to there was only only bout 45min.

The trip back from there took 1hour 30min.

It was twice the time i took there...

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Trying to forget the SUN,and looking at the good of the MOON!

All my hard work over the weeks for nothing! Damn Man!

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Got a serious sunburn from yesterday! ARGH! HURTS!